In times like these... u learn to live and love...

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover boy
Cheers darlin'
I got years to wait around for you
Cheers darlin'
I've got your wedding bells in my ear
Cheers darlin'
You give me three cigarettes to smoke my tears away

And I die when you mention his name
And I lied, I should have kissed you
When we were running the reins

What am I darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover man
Cheers darlin'
I just hang around and eat from a can
Cheers darlin'
I got a ribbon of green on my guitar
Cheers darlin'
I got a beauty queen
To sit not very far from here

I die when he comes around
To take you home
I'm too shy
I should have kissed you when we were alone

What am I darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Oh what am I? What am I darlin'?
I got years to wait...
( Damien Rice - Cheers Darlin )
*nobody understands*

another damien rice song i'm putting at the start of my blog... if u haven't heard of his name yet... u'll hear more of it soon... sometimes i think i juz advertise the guy too much... but heyz... come on! the guy's farking brilliant... nobody composes songs n sings them like he does anymore... emotions u can feel from the sound of his voice n the strum of his guitar... i can juz listen to his songs over n over again n not be tired of him... jon lim thinks i'm weird... listening to kanye west on one hand and damien rice on the other... well... u dun see me listening to iron maiden n scorpions do ya?
*nobody understands*

something's really wrong wif me... not mentally lahz (u all already know tat!)... but more physical... marks... bites... scars... scratches... watever u can call them have juz been appearing on all parts of my body... non-stop... especially on my legs... it's really bad... i really dun know wat the hell is going on... i din have this problem till late last yr... went to see the skin specialist recently... he said it's juz an infection... just an infection? how u know it's not something more? the wounds i get from scratching is horrible... it's juz too itchy... i scratch... a scar makes it mark... the itch is unbearable now... i scratch somemore... it's getting worse... creams... menthol... aloe vera... tea tree oil... alcohol swab (WOW!) basket... nothing works... eh... no joke... wats going on? if tat wasn't enuff... my eyes are giving me problems again... sore eyes... the sleepless nights really taking their toll on me... or could it be the heaty weather? ahhh... a combination... as my girl wud say... it's becoz i have itchy fingers tats y i have sore eyes and open wounds... well... u're probably rite... but like i said... probably...
*nobody understands*

dun look for trouble... trouble will look for u...
*nobody understands*

another one of those days... had juz left the hospital... was really not in the mood to talk to no-one... was at the platform waitin for the train to arrive... out from nowhere... a girl approaches me with this huge barang barang bag... i knew wat was coming

HELLO! how are u? my name is ... (i din quite catch it)... juz ask tat u spare me a min of ur time u see here this box inside... (wah... dun even want to wait for my answer issit)... u know wat is inside? (does it look like i can see thru walls?)u got go london b4 anot sir? this is the famous clock tower! the big ben! yah... u see this... (i peer into the box n see a lighter n an ashtray... yup... dun be shocked! big ben wasn't inside! *GASP*... the only big benny abt these items were that they had the word big ben and a picture of a clock tower engraved on each item)... impressive rite?! (not really )... this one flown in STRAIGHT from london u know... (my balls!)... cannot find in singapore 1... usual price is 69.99 but for now we're having a special promotion and selling it at 20 dollars only... 20 dollars lehz sir! yes it is tat cheap! but today is the last day tats y u must buy now... but wait... during this period u also get a free gift (out from her xiao ding dang bag comes another box)... u see inside here... got a free watch lehz... u tell me where got offer like this... too good to be true rite but it is true!... only 20 dollars sir... so how?

at this point... i felt watever she had been telling me was total bollocks and decided to give it to her straight... nobody shits wif jon on a bad day... i had enuff... i was on my way to giving her the biggest ticking off of my career... angry jon had been unleashed... but decided on a shake of the head n a "no thank u" in the end...

eh eh... but why... (wat why)... this 1 very good mahz... ermmm... 20 dollars too expensive issit?

i politely answered back... maybe i didn't...

it's not tat... i'm really not interested... plus i dun even have 20 dollars in my wallet (total bullshit )... all i have is like... ermmm... 10 bucks?

farkz... get the bloody hint... i'm not interested u twat...

10 dollars ahhh? errrr...

she summons over her "business partner" who's not far from us... at tat point i was like thinking... WAH! mafia tactics now lahz... my back was against the wall... a test of character was needed... would i 'bottle' it? the train was taking ages to come...

errr... if u got only 10 dollars then can lahz... sell u for tat price... no problems...

WHAT?! u gotta be bloody shitting me... from 69.99 to 20 and now to 10? since when did i enter the bargain basement? is the salvation army juz around the corner? come on... this was getting ridiculous... i dun look like i really have my brains in my ass do i? DUN ANSWER TAT

(nervous laughter) if u can sell this to me at 10 dollars doesn't it mean this is worth less than 10?

she converses wif her business partner... either she really din hear me or she's really got her back against the wall now... i pressed on...

y sell me so low? if u sell me so low... u're making loss mahz... u say is 20 dollars... y do u want to do tat? y dun u try n sell to other pple... like tat then wun make loss mahz... better than sell me 10 dollars...

i still dun know how it got to this point from a shake of the head and a "no thank you"

aiyah cannot lah... today last day... now got to go back office... really u cannot buy ah

another shake of the head... the train came... tats all tat mattered now...
*nobody understands*

i know i've kept on saying this... but i need a farking holiday man... been planning to go to a lot of places... possibilities named were bangkok... taiwan... hongkong... bintan... macau... laos... obviously some were cock possibilities but they were juz ideas... and of course... manchester... ahhh... tat place juz brings back memories... it'll always have a special place in my heart... and a special place in my bank account too.... ahhhhhhhhhh... in any case... if i want a trip i'd best be doin it for the rite reasons... army life beckoning... another "brilliant" year in school... ahhhh... 010****F has waited damn long to graduate... his moment is arriving soon... quick... gif me my robe and my scroll... oh wait... we dun do tat... ahhh... juz let me go...
*nobody understands*

juz wanna thank a few pple for now... like my mates at harry's@changi airport... when i first joined i was really a headless chicken... u guyz took care of me and showed me the ropes... and now... i've found my own two feet in this bar... guyz like paul... nadia... kim... thanx man...
*nobody understands*

special mention going out to my groupmates... hidahyah... geraldine... serene... wen ling... janice... the certain feeling i have is like we're all marooned on an island in the middle of the ocean... different personalities... prima donna egos (well... not really lahz)... different styles... we needed to get off this island... we could either farkin be individuals abt it and do it all alone... or we cud have done it together as a team... we chose the latter... my group has been fantastic... absolutely top notch... the best grp i've worked in during my whole existence in temasek poly... i have not one single complaint abt my group... the experience has been wonderful... i dun take my position for granted... i'm juz glad tat i was given the chance to enjoy this ride wif u galz...
*nobody understands*

my blogmate... take care of ur wounds yah... these wounds wun seem to heal... the pain is juz too real... for u at least... hahaz... juz kidding... i'm sure u know wat's best for urself... top marks to u for coming thru the pain barrier during these crunch times... we couldn't have done it without ya...
*nobody understands*

to my good buddies... the only senior part-timer who's left at bakerzin... hats off to ya man... u're really the survivor... juz becoz i dun work there anymore doesn't mean i have forgotten u... time's are tight man... tat doesn't mean we still dun hang tight... sheesha sessions are still the norm u hear... i'll drop by bakerz whenever i can... but truth be told... u'll nv beat my record there... hahaz... and also to ivan... never one to shy away from the limelight... who do u look for when u got a problem? brother jon will take u to the promise land...
*nobody understands*

lastly... all my love going out to my woman... in these difficult times... u're being very strong... i'm proud of u... it's been wonderful these 9 months wif u... our relationship has really withstood the test of time... it's already way past our sell-by date and we're still as fresh as ever... hahaz... unchartered territory for us as we've never experienced long-term relationships b4... but i must say we're handling it very well... we've had our fair share of arguments... but never more than tat... time spent wif u has been top quality... i wouldn't trade it in for anything else... not even an xbox... hahaz... juz jokin... typical jon eh? oh well... let's look to more sunny days ahead... rain also can lahz... unless u mind...
*nobody understands*