Scratch ur life away ( Part 1 )

It's crazy but i'm falling apart
It's crazy how your leaving me scarred
It's crazy girl wherever you are
You stole, my heart
It's crazy but I'm going insane
Feeling lost confused and ashamed
It's crazy, hope your feeling my pain
You stole, my heart
( Jay Sean - Stolen )
*nobody understands*

it's been more than a month since i last blogged... feelin foreign juz sitting in front of this damn computer and pouring out my feelingz to it... to u... so many things have happened during this time... good... bad... ugly... well... dun know if i'd remember it all... but heyz... let's begin shall we?
*nobody understands*

got back wif terisa recently... we were having dinner at siglap to celebrate her 20th yr of birth and we got to talking... certain things were said... lots of talking and a few moments later... words were not needed anymore... been feelin better ever since...
*nobody understands*

tiredness fuels empty thoughts... finished my attachment at the airport recently too... quite emotional to be leaving the place coz i made a couple of frenz there b4 i left... the sad thing is... i only got to know them for less than a month... they were from temasek polytechnic too but juz tat they're of a different course... the only problem wif tat place was tat my appraisal took so bloody long to get done tat becoz of it i had to go back to CAAS to get it... but my impression of Abbas ( my employer @ CAAS ) is tat he's still a good guy n one wif plenty of experience... his job isn't an easy one but he still manages to make it look simple... a good role model to the kids...
*nobody understands*

on the 18th of Nov... i coincidentally met christine at Harry's Bar in the Transit Terminal... was rather surprised to even see her here... been such a long time since i last saw her so naturally i went over to speak to her... the usual how have u been... how's scool... wat are u doing here... and then... after many more conversations... i asked... how much do u earn here? Do they need part-timers? she gave me a card... i spoke to the manager... after a brief interview... i was offered the job... the pay wud be the same but i'd be learning new things over here coz i'd nv worked b4 in a bar in my life... so it was something new... compared to Bakerzin... the only problem now was... how the fark am i gonna juggle scool... terisa... my frenz... n these two jobs all in a week? one wud hafta go...
*nobody understands*

I had initially planned to actually try n work all of these things out together... but i guess tat plan went to the dumps... after an incident at Bakerzin tat left me rather pissed... i told marlene tat i'd be leaving... almost 3 yrs at baker's inn... bakerzin... this was one of the hardest decisions of my life...
*nobody understands*

life at harry's isn't easy... but i expected tat from the get-go... i'm a newbie and hey... newbies always get farked... for my 1st shift over there i did the 11-7 shift which was known as the night shift aka graveyard shift... coz its 11pm to 7am... only 2 pple do this shift each nite... a shift apparently nobody ever wants to do... oh well... tat nobody was me then... wat's new... anywayz... being a newbie over there... every single thing i seemed to do ( or not do ) made me look like a cock... prices of drinks... how to make mixers... wat food do u have... juz some of the things on my 1st day tat gave me trouble... it isn't so much help either when all the pple u're working wif from the earlier shifts are all dicks too... fortunately i had herman helping me... he's this young gay ( can see one lah! ) malay bartender who has enuff experience in this industry to know juz abt anything in the bar... he was nice enuff to show me the ropes and the procedures for the nite shift... this is apparently the only shift he's been doing in all the 3 mths he's been at harry's... weird huh? he says he works at an events company in the day and so can only do this shift for this job... the question was... when do u get any sleep then? he says he's wanted to quit for some time now but the management is sorely lacking in staff and so they need him to stay for the time being... hmmm... is tat why they hired me? after my 1st day... i was exhausted... the hard part was over... or was it?
*nobody understands*