enter the depression era...

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
( Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life )
*nobody understands*

My time at the airport is coming to an end... i'll have mixed emotions abt leaving this place... i wish tat the relationship between my supervisor and me cud have been better but well... it's too late for tat now anyway... wat we have in the office really is strictly employer-employee status... only juz yesterday i wuz a mere metre away from him... i had entered the office while he had juz exited from a room... he glanced over to see who had entered the office... a simple hello or good morning wud have been nice... even a why u everytime late wud have been comforting... but he juz turned ard n walked towards his cubicle... i really felt like crap... and to later on in the day learn tat already my colleagues at T2 have received their check in the mail and tat the new interns in my department have gotten theirs too... it even got me more demoralised... something's really wrong... i gotta gif him the appraisal form later... only he knows wat grade he'll gif me... i dun have high hopes for tat... but a simple pass is juz all i ask for...
*nobody understands*

Grace returned from KL yesterday... her short stint at bakerzin KL had ended and a few of us ( phyllis, serena, yen, peizhen, jons ) were in singapore to receive her back... even though she had a long trip back and she obviously must have been tired... she wuz nice enuff to keep her energy levels up for supper wif us at hougang... more convenient for her as she cud put her stuff back at home... looks like she had tons of fun... new shoes... new jeans... rebonded hair... the pay there wuz not bad either... apparently much more than she'd receive here in singapore... well... guess coz it wuz for 2 weeks only... we ate at this famous punggol nasi lemak place at hougang... the queue nv seemed to shorten and i asked peizhen how come... wuz it coz it wuz cheap? oh no no no... its very expensive... but its very nice... hahaz... everything here nice according to her... i'll take her word for it... she's eaten here much more than me... we sat ard the table talkin thru the nite till we lost track of time... my goodness... 3am already? time really flies doesn't it... peizhen wuz nice enuff to send a few of us back coz it'll surely cost a bomb to take a cab back... thanx again peizhen...
*nobody understands*

quite excited to be goin bintan soon... already last nite the few of us were talkin abt it and i wuz really into it... i juz need a break... from bakerz... from airport... from shit... juz a break... charge the batteries n come back the duracell bunny... school will be startin soon after i get back... haiz... will be weird goin back to scool... studyin has nv been my forte... but this will be the final stretch b4 i graduate... gotta do well this time... can't always be deferring my army rite? i'd need to adapt again... it'll be hard... dun know whether i'll still have the strength to get thru... i always feel like i'm breaking apart... i might juz snap at any moment... diploma in tourism management... is tat wat i'm cut out for? a dying trade u might say... oh pls tell me otherwise... will it be different this new term? let's find out...
*nobody understands*

caught the new blink 182 video on mtv recently... will sample their single the next time... after their last song I Miss You i haven't heard any single from them so it wuz great to hear from them again... a great song wif a power music video i must say... the music video wuz rather cool n i'd recommend u to catch it on mtv whenever u have the chance... its receivin quite a bit of airplay now...
*nobody understands*

woke up to find a cockroach layin dead beside me... how well can my life be getting now...
*nobody understands*