Only time will tell...

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
( Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You )
*nobody understands*

i'm out of tracom already... passed out on the 4th oct... was a really retarded parade... i was in the front row somemore... how lame can tat be man... anywayz... when we started wif our t-baton display... guess wat? i even heard laughter from the crowd... there even was this malay mother in front of me who went hysterical when we started... imagine tat... hahaz... and i even had our folks to come see this... OH THE HUMANITY!... well... it's over yeah... no more in police academy anymore... on to greater things...
*nobody understands*

a few of us harry's crew were celebratin jas bdae at marina south the other day... jas was one of my colleagues who used to work at harry's bar but i din really know her too well... was kinda surprised when nadia called to ask me to join the 3 of u... well... since i know nadia n kim... why not? plus u said she was paying... i'm such a slut... in any case... we had steamboat down at marina south... and i gotta clear up this common misconception tat many pple i know have... WHERE GOT DIRTY?... i love eating here... food is cheap n u can eat all u want... better than seoul garden or cocca restaurant... so expensive... felt a bit paiseh when the girls asked me to get the crab... coz it was a live crab n i din exactly know how to pummel it... ALAMAK! WAT KIND OF GUY ARE U?! USELESS LAHZ!... eh sorry lahz... if u want me to change light bulb i know how k!... hahaz... anywayz... was a bit concerned abt goin there in the 1st place coz nadia's a muslim... how can... the stuff there not halal... i know she dun eat pork... but it's like... we're cookin it all together yeah? can mehz? "oh nvm... i'm fine wif it"... ahhh... din surprise me anyway... u go club n drink somemore... shall not be too touchy here... while we had our dinner i must have had like 5 cans of season's lemon tea... tat shit's addictive sia... been tryin to cut down... but i juz can't... well... better than drinkin coke lahz... so much fizz... u'll definately smell something funky when u're next to me... after we had our meal we went to have a shot at bowlin... was a member of the scool team the last time... but hadn't played the game in ages so i wanted to see if i still had it... i mean... it's like ridin a bike eh? once u have the hang of it... u wun forget it... well... the answer is... no... i sucked...
*nobody understands*

Have u ever seen 2 old ladies rushing for a seat on the mrt b4? well i did... it's not a particularly pleasant sight... once a seat was available during rush hr... nevermind the train was already damn packed... both of them on opposite ends jostled their way thru the crowd... pushin kids out of the way juz to get to their seat... eventually only 1 got it and was met wif a sarcastic smile... i must have witnessed a different kind of sport being played out on this train... kinda like musical chairs now come to think of it...
*nobody understands*

recently bought myself a PS2... yes no typo error... i bought one... the price was too good to pass off... my fren was lookin for a buyer so juz told him i was interested... bought it on credit though coz i'm already flat out for the month... apparently it's a tradition to name it... haven't thought of a name yet... but will eventually think of one soon...
*nobody understands*

i'll officially be startin my first day of work at MHA in like 8 hrs time... oh pls Lord... help me get thru this day in one piece...
*nobody understands*

very happy rite now... coz Man City have run out 2-1 winners against West Ham... their own home form has a reputation of being rather inconsistant so i'm overjoyed tat they managed to put this one away... cud have been more though... but still happy wif the result... better things to come? how abt a Champions League place? even better... how abt the title? hahaz...
*nobody understands*

met this guy at the table i was sittin at while watchin the man city game... quite a friendly chap... told me he himself was a punter and tat he had this system of predicting matches but was not betting on this game... during the half-time break we talked a lot abt soccer n other stuff... after man city scored their second goal he told me tat west ham will score 1 for sure but will still lose the match... how cud he be so sure? he juz said sure 1... and true enuff... in injury time they got 1 back... pure luck? i dun know man... i juz know tat i wud have been really pissed if man city had thrown tat match away juz like in previous yrs... but fortunately... kevin keegan isn't in charge anymore...
*nobody understands*



This looks like a much better place...
THE CITY OF MANCHESTER STADIUM!